A Day In The Life Of A Food Addict

Food addiction – what does it feel and look like?

I had someone ask me (thank you for being honest enough to admit to me that you don’t UNDERSTAND what it is and want to try and understand it):

“I’m not trying to sound rude by asking you this. I just don’t understand and want to know. Will you please explain to me what food addiction feels and looks like?”

Ugh.

That question requires some raw honest truth. I’ve actually had this post in draft mode for several days. I wasn’t sure whether I was going to share with you all what my day as a food addict looks like. I’ve never admitted or shared how much or what I eat. It’s not pretty. Of course, every day is different. Some days I eat more. Some days I eat less. But every day I eat and eat and eat…it never ends.

Before I share the embarrassing truth of just how bad things are, I recently poured my heart out when I wrote food addiction is winning again. That might give you a little insight as to what I’m going through.

So, here goes…

Food Addiction – A Glimpse Into A Day In My Life

I didn’t grab my camera until a little bit later in the day so I don’t have a pic from the first few trips to the kitchen.

6:30am

  • 3/4 bottle of Diet Coke
  • 2 chocolate chip granola bars

7:00am

  • 2 pieces cinnamon and sugar toast
  • bowl of cocoa wheats (with lots of sugar)

9:30am

Snack - Diet Coke & Little Debbie Cupcake


11:45am

More Food - Pizza and Breadsticks


Not Sure What Time – 1 or 2ish I think

Even More Food - Bottle Caps, Reese Peanut Butter Cups and Star Crunch


4:30pm

Fried Chicken, Mashed Potatoes & Gravy, French Fries, Green Beans, Cole Slaw & A Biscuit


8:50pm
(camera batteries died so no pictures)

  • piece of fried chicken
  • mashed potatoes and gravy

11:00pm

  • star crunches (4)
  • Reese peanut butter cups (miniature) – have no clue how many
  • tortilla chips
  • spinach dip

So, there you have it – a day in my life. All I do is EAT. When I’m not eating I think about eating. I wake up thinking about food. I go to sleep thinking about food. I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about food. This is not normal. I’m sick. I need help. I’m killing myself – and looking at these pictures and documenting a day in my life made me realize how SERIOUS this really is.

Me

14 Responses to A Day In The Life Of A Food Addict

  1. Stacey says:

    I still love you and totally understand food addiction.
    Have you ever looked to see if there is an overeater’s anonymous group in your area?
    It’s like AA, but food. It’s real and it God saved me in it.
    Let me know if you have questions.

    • admin says:

      Stacey – Thank you for commenting. I have checked into Overeater’s Anonymous. I chickened out on going last week but it was actually a good thing because the group I was going to go to no longer exists. The closest group to me is 1 hour away and I’m waiting for the leader to call me back – apparently she’s not too good about returning phone calls because I called on Monday and I still haven’t heard from her!

  2. teresa says:

    This is really a great record of what a day can look like. I may make different choices, but I’ve been very much in the constant eating rut with you.
    Clearly you’re addicted to sugar (as am I). I have a post in the works about my own thoughts on this, since I’m desperately trying to solve it myself…
    One thing I know is that I will never be able to “diet” unless I break the sugar addiction part.
    One reason to crave sugar is because we literally need sugar to fuel our brains. No matter what you eat, it must be converted to sugar for your brain to use it. (from what I understand).
    I believe that often when we have these cravings and all the extra weight, we have candida issues. Which often means that we don’t really burn efficiently or utilize what we do eat anyway.
    In Chinese Medicine it’s called Dampness. (I studied Chinese medicine, but never finished to become an acupuncturist…). At any rate, when we eat the wrong things, we are still sort of starving for nutrition and constantly “hungry”.
    I believe that the only way out of the cycle is to cleanse from the candida and sugar. It just means that you can’t eat empty carbs and sugar, even if you count the calories. It’s not just about counting calories for us.
    I don’t believe in “no carb” diets. I did that in college and gained back so much weight afterward. It’s not a good solution.
    But, low carb and only very complex and healthy carbs is a different thing.
    This is probably long enough (too long). But I just really understand and am in the same place.
    I’m exhausted from thinking about food.
    And obviously knowing everything I do (or think I do) hasn’t solved my problem. It’s been about being able to actually DO it.
    I’m really trying to use the energy of the new year to catapult me into the Zone.
    If there’s anything I can do to support you, let me know.
    hugs,
    teresa
    teresa´s last blog post ..Hey Xiety…

    • admin says:

      Teresa thank you for your book…oh I mean comment 😉 I loved it! I have a friend that has researched the whole candida thing and followed a diet to get rid of extra candida in her body (something like that). I think I’ll ask her about it!

      I wish you the best of luck this year! Here’s to us both getting into the zone and getting healthy! 🙂

  3. Christine says:

    Oh Tishia… hun… that is sooo not good! (as you know)! I am so proud of you for admitting this is an issue. A.) After reading this, you REALLY need to read the PRISM Book: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1590528468?ie=UTF8&tag=dinewithouwhi-20
    B.) Do something for me… for just a week, try grabbing a piece of fruit any time you feel a sugar craving. Try that, and a glass of water and wait 20-30 min.

    Sugar addiction is so hard to break, but so worth it! I still struggle with it, but am doing so much better now that we strive to follow the PRISM diet.

    C-
    Christine´s last blog post ..Disney World Pictures

    • admin says:

      Christine – Thank you for your comment. I have the book bookmarked and plan on purchasing it soon.

      It’s funny that you asked me to try grabbing a piece of fruit for a week every time I feel a sugar craving because for some weird reason while at Wal-Mart today I picked up bananas and tangerines! It was so weird that I did that…it must have been a God thing!

  4. Dayna (Christine's friend) says:

    I’ve found that I crave less sugar when I’ve eliminated all high fructose corn syrup from my diet. This can be tricky, because it is in all sorts of things. But, truly, my sugar cravings are much less with this ingredient out of my house.
    If you “need” sugar, throw away all of your items with high fructose corn syrup in the ingredient list on the label. Then, find something with sugar in it. In a couple of days, if you are at all like me and my metabolism, you will find that your sugar cravings are much less.
    Fruit is a “sugar” choice. So, Christine’s suggestion is also a very good one. But most importantly, get rid of any high fructose corn syrup temptation.

    • admin says:

      Hi Dayna! Thank you for taking the time to comment. I appreciate it. You’re not the first person that has recently mentioned eliminating high fructose corn syrup! I bet my love for Diet Coke is going to have to be one thing I deal with and get rid of because I can only imagine how much fructose syrup it has in it.

  5. Kathryn Crane says:

    For anyone suffering from food addiction, or who just wants to understand more, I recommend a book by Jennifer Joyner called Designated Fat Girl. This book was featured on Oprah for those who need a big name. Me, I went to school with Jennifer’s hubby and trusted his word. http://www.amazon.com/Designated-Fat-Girl-Jennifer-Joyner/dp/0762759623/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1295437116&sr=1-1

  6. Angie says:

    Wow, I can totally relate to that. I think about food constantly. Even while I’m eating I’m planning my next meal. And very few people seem to understand that it is an addiction. It’s no different than being an alcoholic or a smoker or a crack addict. Well, with one exception – those addicts can avoid their drug. Food addicts still have to eat, which makes it super-hard to end the cycle.

    Good for you for acknowledging you have a problem. That is often the most important step.
    Angie´s last blog post ..The Sugar Addict’s Guide to Carbohydrates

    • admin says:

      Angie – Thank you for commenting! I’m surprised how many people have been telling me that they can relate and they struggle with a food addiction too! It’s nice to know that I’m not alone and that others understand!

      I’m sort of an addict junkie. Meaning, when younger I had an alcohol addiction (which I still struggle with sometimes). I’m a food addict. In the past I’ve been a compulsive shopper and addicted to shopping. It’s like a constant theme in my life…and I’m tired of it!

      Yep, I’m with you on the “even while I’m eating I’m planning my next meal.” I totally relate to that! Ugh.

  7. Becki Noles says:

    My name is Becki and I am a food addict. I crave more “real” food than sugar, however like you I think about it all the time. I think about food from the time I wake up until I go to bed. When I plan things food is a big part of the plans. I don’t start eating until about 12:00 p.m. but once I start I can’t seem to stop. The bad part for me is that I get the same enjoyment out of preparing the food as I do eating it.
    Becki Noles´s last blog post ..Introversion is a Blessing

    • Tishia - Author says:

      Hi Becki! Thank you for commenting. Ever since I posted this I’m amazed at how many people (both publicly and privately) have shared with me that they too are a food addict. It’s a lot more common than I realized! I don’t know about you but it’s tiring thinking about food all day every day!