… the worse it is.
What does that mean?
The harder I try to be ‘good’ when it comes to food and not binge or eat bad the worse I am!
It’s only 8am and I’ve already had one binge fest today!
I went to bed last night thinking about food as usual but promising myself that today was a new day and I would stop binging, eating junk, etc.
Yeah…that promise got me far. I didn’t even make it 24 hours!
As soon as I woke up I felt agitated, anxious and was craving something sweet and that was at 6am! How can you crave something sweet that early in the morning?
I tried eating eggs…but that didn’t help.
I tried eating a piece of sausage…but that didn’t help.
I saw the containers sitting there on the counter with the chocolate chip and oatmeal raisin cookies my mom just made yesterday. I tried walking away. But I ended up ‘diving’ right in. 6 cookies only left me salivating for more sweets, more sugar, more food But, as soon as I had the first few bites of cookies I wasn’t feeling agitated anymore. I had my “crack” so it took the edginess off…at least for a few minutes.
So here I am blogging in hopes that the cravings will go away but so far it’s not working. Maybe I should just go back to bed and go back to sleep…at least when I’m sleeping I can be good and not eat!