Another “Diet” Failure

Low Carb Fail

I feel like such a failure…

I only made it on low-carb for a month, actually just shy of a month. I feel like I had myself set up for failure from the beginning because I wasn’t thinking about this being a lifestyle change or a way that I could eat the rest of my life…all I was focused on was losing some weight quickly. And that pretty much backfired on me. I stalled after the first week where I had a big loss and then at times even showed a gain. Then I was actually thankful when my scale broke because I was so frustrated that I was working so hard and being so good following low carb but the weight wasn’t coming off – sooooo discouraging.

I did feel good for the first couple weeks and then I started having problems (but I’ve been having some issues even before starting low carb so I am NOT blaming it on low carb!) where I just didn’t feel good (stomach issues, frequent bathroom issues, headaches, constant stomach aches, no energy – worse than my normal I have insomnia so I’m tired all the time…I was feeling really lethargic).

And interestingly after a couple bad days of not feeling good all I wanted was chicken noodle soup so that’s how I “blew” the low carb diet. And then I wanted toast and crackers and it just went downhill from there! I didn’t blow it on anything sugary like in the past when I’ve blown diets.

Not Knowing What’s Wrong

I had a doctor’s appointment last week for my wrist and we ended up spending the majority of the appointment talking about my other issues and then it turned into having a ton of blood work drawn because she was concerned that some of the symptoms I’m dealing with are diabetic symptoms.  After a week of no news from the doctor’s office on my blood work, I’m assuming that means no news is good news. I did call but the office was already closed for the day so I’ll have to make sure to call again on Monday.

No More Dieting

One of the things we talked about was how unhealthy all this yo yo dieting I’ve done over the years is. My first diet was back in 6th grade! I’ve gained and lost and gained and lost and each time I lose and gain, I gain even more. It’s really unhealthy for my heart. And we also talked about how I have got to stop DIETING and trying all these different ‘fad’ diets. We talked about me meeting with a nutritionist but I don’t have insurance so she said it may not be an option for me because it’s so pricey. I’m going to at least check into it.

We didn’t really talk about anything I don’t already know. I know that every time I start a “diet” it never works because I’m always depriving myself from some sort of food. And then when I buckle and give in and allow myself to have that food I’ve been depriving myself of, I end up not being able to control myself and get back on track.

I totally agree with the whole no more dieting thing but yet if I am diabetic, from what I’ve read you follow a pretty low carb diet and when I think back over the years of my dieting career, the only thing that I’ve ever had real success with was Weight Watchers…and isn’t that considered a diet too? So, technically aren’t we all following some kind of “diet” every day of our lives?

She told me that she believes I know what the right thing for me to do is and that I know what I have to do, it’s just a matter of digging deep and getting to the root (emotional) of my eating issues because until I deal with the emotional reasons behind why I use food to stuff my feelings, reward myself, eat when I’m happy, eat when I’m sad, etc that nothing will help me make a lifestyle change.

I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately and it’s so true. Until I deal with the gremlins of my emotional issues with food nothing is going to change…at least not for long term success. But as silly as it sounds I don’t know how to get to the root of the reasons I have so many food issues. I need to find a way to figure all this out because my son deserves to have his mom around for as long as possible and I deserve to live a healthier life!


4 Responses to Another “Diet” Failure

  1. Cara says:

    Tish! I don’t want you to use the word “Failure” here – this is truly a lesson; a beautiful one at that. You realized something MAJOR in this post and that is that diets do NOT work. It all comes down to the emotional side of things – what’s going on upstairs. I think this should be a celebration post! Now that you know it’s not about low carb or ANY dieting tactic, the real work will begin, and you WILL be able to get through this…I just know it 🙂

    Cara´s last blog post ..With Purpose, There is Peace

    • admin says:

      Hey Cara! Thank you for taking the time to comment, it means a lot 🙂 And you know, thanks for making me look at this in a different perspective instead of as a failure. You’re right, I should celebrate the fact that I learned a huge lesson and realized that diets don’t work and I need to deal with the emotional side of things!

  2. Hey.

    I think I’ve told you a little bit about my own history with food issues. I agree with what your doctor said about getting to the root emotional issues of why you overeat. This is something that will take some time for you to unearth, but it’s worth it. I speak from personal experience when I say that once you are able to do that, then doing the loving thing for yourself (eating primarily healthy foods in the proper amounts) becomes a whole lot easier.

    If you need to talk anytime, please fire me off an email. I have lots of resources and suggestions that I can pass along to you.

    Momma Sunshine´s last blog post ..Happy Anniversary

    • admin says:

      Hi Momma Sunshine! I’ve known for a long time I need to get to the root of the emotional issues of why I overeat…I just honestly don’t know how to figure it out. I mean I can point back to things in my childhood that happened that I turned to food but I don’t know how to figure it all out/sort it out – if that makes any sense. I will definitely send you an email, I could use any suggestions/resources you have 🙂