No More Plus Size … eventually

Last time I never took starting point pictures…at least I don’t think I did. If I remember correctly I didn’t take pictures until I had already lost 30 lbs or so. This time around I wanted to have pictures from the get go, regardless of not liking how I look. It’s weird – I know I’m big fat obese but I don’t really get it until I look at pictures…if that makes any sense.

So here we go – starting point pictures  (more…)

So let’s see…

First here are two new weight loss pics
I just added to these pics to my ‘collection’. If you didn’t see my recent weigh in post I’m now down 54.4 pounds

So I still look at myself and see this FAT girl (you know I’m beginning to wonder if that perception of myself will ever change????) I’ve come really far and I’m so so proud of myself. I’m really trying to focus on NOT looking at the big number (total weight I have to lose) because that is so depressing and like my awesome friend Angie said this is a FOREVER journey anyways. It’s not just something that once I even reach my goal weight I’ll stop doing. I’ll be forever focusing/working on staying healthy and keeping the weight off!

But when I have moments like this and can’t stop seeing myself as the fat girl I pull out these photos to look at & I’m really reminded of how far I truly have come.

Before Pics:

I’ve kicked a** and attention whore or not I deserve to ‘brag’ about these accomplishments!

Second – Date Update

I had my second date with M on Saturday. We did dinner at one of my fave places to eat (which also coincidentally it’s hard to eat healthy at this place) La Senorita and then went and saw Date Night. I really like his personality – he’s goofy, fun loving, easy going and makes me laugh a lot.

We ended the evening with we definitely would like to see each other again we’re just now sure when our schedules will allow. It’s too hard to do anything during the week unless we meet for a quick lunch. Next weekend my best friend and her family is coming up for the long weekend so I’ll be with them all weekend.

So that’s that How was your weekend? Anything exciting going on?

Things have slowed down a lot in the weight loss department. I’ve had a couple weekends in a row where I’ve went on major binge eating sessions. I’ve managed to get right back on track each Monday after the weekend episodes but now today I’m just feeling “tired” of Weight Watchers and the whole healthy lifestyle. I’m lacking motivation to exercise, etc. I’m just in a really big funk and it sucks!

So I decided to check out a few before and after pictures because there’s nothing more motivating than seeing the difference in myself when I look at pictures.

Before Losing 38 lbs & After Losing 38 lbs (April 2010) (kind of hard to really tell cause I’m sitting down in the 1st pic):

Before & After Headshot (oh how I wish the rest of my body was getting as thin as my face!!!!):

So what do you do when you’re feeling lack of motivation? What keeps you going when you’re just feeling ‘tired’?

One thing I need to start doing is taking more pictures of this weight loss journey.  I don’t have very many before and after weight loss pictures. Well of course I’m only 30 pounds into losing weight so it’s not like I’m really at the ‘after’ point yet. But I’m going to want pictures throughout this journey to look at and see my progress.

And right now I really needed to see my progress! Lately I’ve kind of been feeling like 30 pounds lost wasn’t really making all that much of a difference. I mean yes I’m in smaller pants and shirt sizes but I just have been feeling…I don’t know I can’t put my finger on it. The best way to describe it is exactly what I said above – I was feeling like 30 pounds lost wasn’t really making all that much of a difference.

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